I will be quite glad when this month is over. I know I shouldn't be wishing time away at my age but it really has been a horrible month.
Boris, our loyal and great companion of nearly 12 years crossed over the rainbow bridge on Monday. He became really quite poorly very quickly. A lump came up almost overnight on the back of his left back leg. I thought it was another abscess and took him straight to the vets. They told us it was a mast cell tumour. We had arranged surgery for this week to have it removed but he developed some serious neurological problems over the weekend. We took him back to the vet on Monday and he told us he was very ill and dying and to let him go would be the kindest thing to. So we hugged and loved him and said our goodbyes and held him while he went to sleep and crossed over the rainbow Bridge. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done.
Added to that, my dear brother Lyn who had been battling diabetes, cancer and heart problems died on Tuesday. He fought long and hard but it was his time to go be with God. He lived 2000 miles away and so with his health issues and my husband's we hadn't seen him for a few years but always kept in touch by phone. I spoke with him on Sunday and we had a lovely talk but I think we both knew it would be the last time we talked in this life.
As for health issues, it seems I have some severe problems in my neck causing nerve compression which is why I have been having such problems with arm weakness, pain and numbness. I had an MRI which confirmed it and I go back to see the surgeon on Monday next.
My husband is hanging in there but is still having bad episodes at night and his BP and pulse rate keep dropping. It does go back up though. He sees his cardiologist again in a couple of weeks. They did manage to get his heart out of atrial fib and back in normal rhythm by shocking it about a month ago but now his heart rate is very slow.
And if all that wasn't bad enough, on Tuesday when we were stopped for a bite to eat on the way back from his neurologist appointment at the VA, a woman reversed into our vehicle and crunched the back bumper.
So now you know why I am wishing this month away.
What a gloomy post but I am hoping my theory of getting things out of my head and into print will help.
I like making things!
Oh geez, I can understand how you are feeling. You have a good vet. In the past I have been advised to do this or that and in hindsight I realized I should have let go. The vet I have now advises me this way, If He Was My Dog, she has 6 of her own and when she says she would not do it for her dog, I listen. When we let our last dog go, I thought I would not get another because it's too hard to let them go. But my grandson brought us two pups 3 years ago...man I am glad he did.
ReplyDeleteSorry Tommy and you are having such health issues. I will be 66 this year. I now say that when I turned 65 I enter the Era of Pain. I've been having some issues with my left arm and hand. Probably caused by something similar to yours.
Lets hope July is better than June.
xx, Carol
Thanks Carol. The turning point for me was 60, it seemed to all go downhill after that lol. We have decided to go healthy! In a bid to try and relieve some of our problems. I am cutting out red meat and fried food and eating more fruits and veggies and yogurt, hubby can't cut out red meat but is reducing his intake and doing the rest of it. Cutting out starches too and bread and sugar but am using honey to sweeten things. Been at it for 3 days so far but really feeling any better lol but will persevere for the time being. Also got some tumeric capsules as they are supposed to be a natural anti inflammatory. We still have Maggie our American bulldog and not planning on getting another dog for now.
DeleteI would advise seeing your doctor if you have arm and hand problems. There are some physio things you can do apparently. I am going to ask about them and try them in the hope surgery won't be necessary.
DeleteOh I hope things get better next month, you have had your fair turn of sadness :-(
ReplyDeleteThanks Dawn, for sure there have been better times. Added to all the above we got a flat tyre and I can tell you that the answer to the question "How long does it take a couple of old disabled fogies to take off a flat tyre and put on a spare?"
DeleteAll flipping morning! But hey, we did it.